Right Now (in bullets)

Someone commented to me today that I must feel like I'm being pulled in five different directions. Indeed I do. Those five directions being: a husband, a baby, another baby, a home and a full-time job. Its... a lot. My mind is so jumbled and scattered that to write any sort of eloquent update would quite possibly short-circuit me, so I thought I would just give you a quick peek at my "right now" in bullet point form. 


1). A Husband

• Devin has been an amazing encouragement as we adjust to this new life of ours
• He has been so patient with me
• He is an amazing dad
• I love watching him interact with the boys
• He is such a hard worker
• I love this man beyond words
• I want to learn to love him better

2). A Baby

• Weston is such a happy, silly baby
• But when he is upset, he gets UPSET
• He is starting to giggle
• He babbles to himself a lot
• He is a morning person
• I am not
• But seeing his great big grin every morning is making me cherish the mornings 
• I love this kid so much

3). Another Baby:

• Isaac is such a sweetheart
• He looks just like Devin
• He acts a lot like Devin too - a quite observer 
• But, oh my, can that boy scream when he gets upset (this is not like Devin)
• He loves being held and snuggling into crevices (armpits especially)
• He loves "talking" and listening to whoever is interacting with him
• He is absolutely fascinated by his hands right now
• Seriously, he just lays there staring at his hands and studying them as they move
• I love this kid so much too

4). A Home: 

• Mostly messy, most of the time
• We've got a lot of stuff and not a lot of room
• I desperately want the time to purge and organize
• Still receiving meals for some amazing friends and family 
• Feeling so grateful for this
• But eventually I'm going to have to start cooking again 
• Cooking is not my gift
• Would love to be a better homemaker
• Doing my best with what time I have

5). A full-time job:

• It's stressful
• But some days it's nice to get away and just be a designer
• But most of the time, I hate being away from Devin and the babies so much
• I get home just a couple of hours before Devin and the babies go to bed 
• If I could sum it up in two words:
• Too
• Much

Notice a couple of key things missing from my top five list? Yeah, "God" and "Me" are almost not-to-be-found most days. I am so blessed in so many ways and I love my new life as a mama to twins, but something's got to give. The current pace is not sustainable long-term. But never you worry dear reader, Devin and I have something in the works that could very possibly be one of the best decisions we'll make during our life together...